Sensual Tease

Forgive me, for I still can't stop giggling. I'm pretending to be oblivious to your arousal when I whisper your name. When you inhale and exhale deeply at my very presence, I toss my hair and flutter at the eyes as though I did not hear your heart skip a beat. It's a silly game I love to play. To see how far my composure will hold, before I myself explode with the sinful desire to allow you to have your way with me. Should I tell you? In that same sultry whisper, that kitten-like glare, should I divulge all that's brewing behind this naughty minx-like grin of mine?

Oh come now darling, where's all the fun in that?

The Greatest Serial Killer of all Time....

Operator: 911 What's your emergency?
Me: Someone is trying to kill me....
Operator: Ma'am, can you give me a description?
Me: Well, I am in an intense amount of pain. My head really hurts, and my skin burns?
Operator: Your skin burns?
Me: YES! I have this horrible rash across my face and chest and it hurts, I even coughed up blood because of what this murderer keeps trying to do to me.
Operator: Are you bleeding anywhere else?
Me: Well I have pains in my stomach and I can hardly breath. And these ulcers in my mouth are making it really hard to talk to you. And I'm so very tired, I can barely stay awake. It makes me so sick, I could just throw up. Can you please help me?
Operator: Ma'am can you give me a description of the perpetrator?
Me: I don't know what this killer looks like, my vision keeps changing. It's really difficult to give an accurate description. I just know that whenever this killer visits me, I am always left with this ill,uneasy feeling. This perp also pulls out my hair and chokes me until I can't swallow properly anymore.
Operator: Ma'am, I don't understand what you mean. You say someone is trying to kill you, you don't know what he or she looks like, yet you have all of these strange symptoms?
Me: YES!!!! It seems to have something against healthy females of a certain age. You have got to help me catch this serial killer!!!
Operator: Ma'am, okay, do you at least know this persons name?
Me: Yes, I do....
Operator: Well, what's the name?
Me: Well, it goes by multiple names, but one name scares me the most.
Operator: What is it?
Me:Systemic lupus erythematosus, nickname SLE. Can you help me, please?
Operator: **Disconnects line**

A Wake in Providence = My wake to the truth

I watched a movie over the weekend called "A Wake in Providence". It was about a small time actor finally landing his big role. The movie itself was mildly entertaining, but there was one particular scene, one particular line that spoke to me. The antagonist goes to the bar and spills his troubles to the bartender. The bartender in turn gives him this "Very important piece of advice....ALL FAMILIES SUCK! IF YOU DON'T EXPECT ANYTHING FROM THEM, THEY CAN'T LET YOU DOWN....." I was only half paying attention to the movie until the man spoke that line. And then it hit me.That must be where I've gone wrong, expecting my family to actually give a shit about my Lupus and all it's ailments. I could not wrap my mind around the fact that my friends do more and care more about raising Lupus awareness than my own flesh and blood. How dare blood NOT be thicker than water!!!!! Day after day I could not make myself come to the conclusion that a mother or a sister would not want to pick up arms and join the fight for life crusade for Lupus sufferers. I mean, they do love me, right? That is what you do for people you love, isn't it? Am I being just a tad bit naive to think that family is your cornerstone, your place of refuge and sanctuary. These are the people who love you unconditionally and will walk through the fires if that's what it takes to get you to a better tomorrow. Hmmmph, not my family, I suppose. Too much time soaking up the Cosby Show bullshit to realize that that type of family love was well scripted by another naive sucker quite like myself. All that time I spent in constant prayer, hoping GOD could give me a family that musicians and composers spend countless hours trying to drum up a theme song for, was that all in vain? Maybe, maybe not. I take a deeper examination into my heart and the wonderful people I have come to know and love and realize, my prayers have been answered. I have met people who have shared the same form of rejection from their families and we have grown together in a strange sense of familiarity. So in the grander scheme of things, GOD did answer my prayers. He surrounded me, or shall I say flooded me with some of the greatest, loyal, and compassionate people that show me everyday that you don't have to be related to be loved like family. So I awake this morning with a clearer sense of family and thank GOD that even though I was not born into the family I wanted, I have evolved and was navigated towards the family I need xoxoxo