A Wake in Providence = My wake to the truth

I watched a movie over the weekend called "A Wake in Providence". It was about a small time actor finally landing his big role. The movie itself was mildly entertaining, but there was one particular scene, one particular line that spoke to me. The antagonist goes to the bar and spills his troubles to the bartender. The bartender in turn gives him this "Very important piece of advice....ALL FAMILIES SUCK! IF YOU DON'T EXPECT ANYTHING FROM THEM, THEY CAN'T LET YOU DOWN....." I was only half paying attention to the movie until the man spoke that line. And then it hit me.That must be where I've gone wrong, expecting my family to actually give a shit about my Lupus and all it's ailments. I could not wrap my mind around the fact that my friends do more and care more about raising Lupus awareness than my own flesh and blood. How dare blood NOT be thicker than water!!!!! Day after day I could not make myself come to the conclusion that a mother or a sister would not want to pick up arms and join the fight for life crusade for Lupus sufferers. I mean, they do love me, right? That is what you do for people you love, isn't it? Am I being just a tad bit naive to think that family is your cornerstone, your place of refuge and sanctuary. These are the people who love you unconditionally and will walk through the fires if that's what it takes to get you to a better tomorrow. Hmmmph, not my family, I suppose. Too much time soaking up the Cosby Show bullshit to realize that that type of family love was well scripted by another naive sucker quite like myself. All that time I spent in constant prayer, hoping GOD could give me a family that musicians and composers spend countless hours trying to drum up a theme song for, was that all in vain? Maybe, maybe not. I take a deeper examination into my heart and the wonderful people I have come to know and love and realize, my prayers have been answered. I have met people who have shared the same form of rejection from their families and we have grown together in a strange sense of familiarity. So in the grander scheme of things, GOD did answer my prayers. He surrounded me, or shall I say flooded me with some of the greatest, loyal, and compassionate people that show me everyday that you don't have to be related to be loved like family. So I awake this morning with a clearer sense of family and thank GOD that even though I was not born into the family I wanted, I have evolved and was navigated towards the family I need xoxoxo